Somebody smack me…

There’s a scene in the movie Clue (a per­sonal favorite garbage brain movie) where this woman is scream­ing hys­ter­i­cally, uncon­trol­lably, being com­pletely irra­tional.  She is met by a quick slap in the face and abruptly stops.  Every­one looks at the smacker and his response is “I had to stop her from screaming.”

I’m not sure why it comes to mind, but for some rea­son today it just seemed to fit.  A good amount of con­ver­sa­tion today was devoted to Sesame Street.  Yes, Sesame Street.  Why it’s good, how long it’s been around, where I can stream it, when it’s on, if it would be good for Ijah or not all sorts of Sesame Street mis­cel­lanea.  Now I can be a ratio­nal per­son.  I’m ratio­nal most of the time.  But today, the men­tion of Ijah prob­a­bly ben­e­fit­ing from watch­ing Sesame Street sent me into an inter­nal emo­tional freak out of “Clue” like proportions.

What, is he behind?  Do peo­ple think he’s stu­pid?  Am I doing a bad job?  Why can’t I teach him things?  Why don’t other peo­ple think I’m teach­ing him things?  Will it help him talk?  Am I not doing enough edu­ca­tional things? What if he doesn’t like it?  What if it’s bad for him?  Have I been wrong­ing him in some way by not let­ting him watch pro­grams like these?  Why do peo­ple think that a show would be bet­ter for him than what I do with him?

Basi­cally an insert your most ridicu­lous reac­tion to Sesame Street here sort of sce­nario.  It was really absurd that it was both­er­ing me.  I KNOW that half of the rea­son any­one would even rec­om­mend it was to maybe try to get ME a break from hav­ing to feel like I am con­stantly interacting.

I needed a good smack.  An “I had to stop her from being an idiot!” sort of smack.

Luck­ily I took care of it myself.  This is it, my smack in text.

Sesame Street can be fun for kids, and edu­ca­tional, and intro­duc­ing Eli­jah to it has no bear­ing on my abil­ity to be a good Mom to him, or raise an intel­li­gent child.  He will not turn into a TV zom­bie because of an hour of Sesame Street.

*Smack*

Tags: being crazy, confidence, emotional freak out, family, Ijah, irrational, Kids, opinion, parenting, quirks, self worth, sometimes I'm just dumb